Time heals all wounds?

Well Jan. 25 was the one year mark of Shane's overdose, well the one that he died from....

Jade and I have been having more in depth heart to heart talks. Some of the things we talk about I know she couldn't have before with me. I am pretty conservative and she (like alot of young people) isn't. I don't agree with alot of her ideals, and to be honest she doesn't agree with mine either. But at least we are talking and now she isn't afraid to talk to me about things either even if I tell her exactly how I feel and I don't agree with it.

She was invited to a couple of friends houses over the weekend. Parties for Shane. She didn't go to any of them. She stayed at home and her reason was that she wanted to be with her mom. That lumps up my throat like you wouldn't believe, even writing this I am tearing up.

We talked alot, but hugged and held each other even more. Sometimes there just isn't any words to say.

Saturday was the worst day. As Jade explained to me that the day before he died they got into a huge fight and she was so mad at him for being high. I came home in the middle of it and ended up taking his keys away from him and calling his grandfather and his mother to let them know he was so messed up.

It's hard being a mom sometimes, we are the ones that are supposed to kiss the booboo's and make bad things go away.


This was taken Thanksgiving of 2006 and it doesn't show completely how cute they looked. She is only 5foot and he was 6ft7inches.

Cold

I usually don't mind the cold, but this year has been just terrible!! The last few years at least the snow has melted in between storms. Not this year we haven't seen the ground since before Christmas.

Mom and Dad are in Pensacola Florida, they will be coming back the end of Feb. for my 8 year old nephews surgery. Then they will head back and stay till April. I don't like talking to them right now. Why? They call and say "It's chilly here too" IT IS IN THE 50's!!!! :D They did get a cold snap last week one night did get down to 19. OUCH!!!

I really miss them. They have traveled all over the world. The Holy Land (mom twice and dad three times) About 6 countries in Europe and 2 times to South Africa. I hate it every time. We are a pretty close family and I don't like having them far away.

Within the last few years their traveling has been a little easier because of cell phones. We all have to same carrier so it doesn't cost us anything.

Dad's health isn't the greatest, and that scares me too. He has already had one trip to the ER in Florida. The warmer weather does seem to help him and he doesn't seem to fall as much at least it isn't daily like it was before he left.

Jade doesn't start back up with school till April and she has offers to go see her grandparents and an uncle in Florida and some friends in Texas. I think she is going to take up the friends offer and head out to the Lonestar State for awhile and I don't like that either.

I LIKE MY FAMILY NEAR ME!

But I guess that if it were me I would go.

I just want them all to be safe and near me. Or I want April to hurry up.